It happened...my baby is ONE!!!

Yep Caleb is one today... and I'm trying so hard to hold it together! I mean what kinda mom is depressed on her son's first birthday?? They are going to send me to the funny farm after this one!

I just look at the picture above and can just close my eyes and smell that newborn baby, I can hear his soft little breaths, and see him rooting around looking for food. This is my last baby. And just the thought of this has me in tears. Why did this year fly by so fast?!!! I tried and tried to savor every minute of it, but somehow I was hoping this day wouldn't come yet.

I'm trying to hold it together, I just don't want him to grow up, at least not yet. He is still my little baby, at least till he turns two right?

Still can't believe he is one today... I picked him up out of his crib, he was standing up babblin, and I looked at that sweet little face, with drool on his chin, big baby cheeks, and his huge smile- and just hugged him and cried. I'm telling you- I'm crazy!!! I just held him for awhile hoping when I turned back and looked at him, he wouldn't be a grown man!!! Seriously, is that how it happens?! They turn one, then they turn twenty-one?!!!

Well, for now, I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful baby, full of joy and love.... and I'm going to savor every second of life with him....